Love · is · like · an · hourglass, · with · the · heart · filling · up · as · the · brain · empties

So my quest this summer was to get over him and it started not a good foot i saw him 3 of 4 times in the beginning . But after that night he kept me in the car till 5 in the morning just to give him something to his delight enough was enough. Seriously huge dick I have ever met I "cried" and told him to take be back .....you can say that was my goodbye to him.

Meanwhile I bring back someone I never thought I would grow to like ,honestly he is nothing but bittersweet but also a huge douchbag. Idk what my problem in finding assholes like these . Lets say I'm keeping him around .... So this is idea for some romantic night okay here it goes :
Picks me up in this red sports car , and we go on a few stops and offers me basically everything he can imagine and i said "no". Get back to his house which is parents are there and takes me to his basement which was pretty rad. But here comes the good part we watched sport center with his smelly recliening chairs that scared the shit outtta me .......lets say we ended on a good note ugh I just llovvveee to make out with him


And finally him ....the cuddlest person I have ever met he suprises me in the best ways possible . Like waking up at 4 am by his texts say " So staying up pass 4 a weekly for you too or just me " of course I quickly responded and said I was up also hahahahahah the convo went on until the sunrised and yes I was smiling like a 12 year old girl and I DONT CARE :] Ugh i hope when I get back to school everything works out and i hope I dont fuck it up !!!!!!!!! AND i hope that bitch backs off hes MINE MINE MINE hahahahahahhahh

kay thats it
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So lately this whole process has been really intense , as much I've cried and such i met such great girls i know i can turn to. Oh yeah he came back and pretty strong like more then ever it really surprised me. I don't understand what made him want me again like he is coming down to see me and stuff. I know him and I would never be anything as much as I really hope ,it can never happen he is living "that life" which doesn't mean having a steady girl. I thought i got over him but in reality I haven't.....
but seriously, I have met boys here I really thought me and Evan would be a little more but he has been ignoring me for the past 2 weeks I'll probably will give up. Ish is just another story , were not meant to be AT ALL as much I have fun making out with him thats all I like him for i just realized.



Hell Week needs to be over
my big brother TALKED to me today for the first time <3 he was so cute but I'm not allowed to speak to the male species
so i dissed him so badly ..poor baby


p.s my feet hurt from wearing heals these past two days :[
p.s.s pray that i have a date for formal and a CUTE one !